The Day of Valentine

When you bring your own rose to school and carry it around to make you feel special because you know you're not going to get an actual valentine from anyone.

But then you actually end up getting an anonymous valentine from someone for the first time ever!

And so you feel quite lame for bringing yourself a rose. :P

(I apologize for the extremely attractive picture of me.)

Jivvy Jive!

I miss Jive already.

I so can't wait until April.

I just wish every day could be Jive Week.

And yes.  I am aware of my day/week incongruence.

So pretty much stage makeup is super fun.

And red lipstick.
And fake eyelashes.

And yes, I may have plucked my eyebrows.

I pretty much looked like a porcelain doll.

But I'm all right with that. :)

Plus... Apparently when I was out singing my solo number Mike said that I looked "so pretty."

Yeah, I was all faked-up... but he said I looked so pretty!

It was a happy moment. :)

I ♥ Jive

Sandy Hook

My heart broke when I heard of the Sandy Hook shootings.

This post is in remembrance of all the victims of this cruel act of violence.

I cried as I put this post together.

Charlotte Bacon, 6  Charlotte was sweet, outgoing and full of energy, her grandmother told CNN affiliate WCCO in Minnesota.  "This is tough. This is surreal. You can't believe this could happen," Irene Hagen told the network. "The whole family is just devastated and we're all trying to come to terms with it."  She said her granddaughter loved school and dresses. Her hair was a mass of beautiful red curls.  "It's horrible. It's really horrible," Hagen told WCCO. "It's hard to believe that someone would kill children, innocent children."

Rachel D'Avino, 29  She likely didn't know it when she died, but her best friend was about to propose.  He had recently asked Rachel's parents for permission, and he was planning to ask for her hand in marriage on Christmas Eve.  That and other details about Rachel's life were described in an obituary posted on the website of Munson-Lovetere Funeral Homes of Connecticut.  "Her presence and tremendous smile brightened any room she entered," it read.  Born in Waterbury, Rachel received her undergraduate degree from the University of Hartford and her Masters from Post University. She was working toward her Doctorate at the University of St. Joseph of Hartford.  Rachel loved karate, cooking, animals, photography and her two younger siblings.  "Her passion, however, was her occupation as a behavioral therapist working with children within the autism spectrum," the obituary read.  In lieu of flowers, it asked that donations be made to Autism Speaks, an advocay organization.

Olivia Engel, 6  Her favorite stuffed animal was a lamb; pink and purple were her favorite colors.  Olivia's family posted a statement on Facebook with those and other details about their beloved daughter.  "She was insightful for her age and had a great sense of humor. She laughed a lot and always lit up a room including the people around her. She was very creative and was always drawing and designing things," her family said.  Olivia took art and dance lessons, played tennis, soccer and swam. She was involved in Girl Scouts and musical theater. She loved school and did well in math and reading.  Her family described her as a "grateful child ... never greedy." Each night, Olivia led grace at the dinner table.

Dylan Hockley, 6  "To know him was to love him," Dylan's grandmother told the Boston Herald about her grandson.  Dylan loved video games, jumping on a trampoline, watching movies and munching garlic bread, she said. He had dimples, blue eyes and "the most mischievous little grin," Theresa Moretti told the newspaper.  She said her daughter and son-in-law moved to Connecticut from England and chose to live where they did because of the schools. Dylan had an older brother.  "He was an angel," Moretti told the Herald. "And I think that's now why he's in heaven."

Dawn Lafferty Hochsprung, 47  Hochsprung, who became Sandy Hook Elementary School's principal two years ago, was "really nice and very fun, but she was also very much a tough lady in the right sort of sense," friend Tom Prunty said. And the students loved her. "Even little kids know when someone cares about them, and that was her," Prunty said.  "I never saw her without a smile," said Aimee Seaver, mother of a first-grader.  Hochsprung lived in Woodbury, Connecticut, with her husband, two daughters and three stepdaughters.  The longtime career educator majored in special education for her bachelor's and master's degrees in the 1990s and had just entered the Ph.D. program at Esteves School of Education at the Sage Colleges in New York last summer. Hochsprung led a school district's strategic planning panel and was the recipient of a national school grant.  Her accomplishments included overseeing the installation of a new security system requiring every visitor to ring the front entrance's doorbell after the school doors locked at 9:30 a.m.  "My mom, Dawn Hochsprung, was taken tragically from me. But she went down in a blaze of glory that truly represents who she was," her daughter, Cristina Hassinger, tweeted.

Jesse Lewis, 6  Jesse loved math, riding horses and playing at his mom's farm, his father told the New York Post.  "He was just a happy boy," said Neil Heslin. "Everybody knew Jesse."  He told the newspaper his son was to make gingerbread houses at school Friday. Heslin was planning to help.  Instead, the last time he saw his son was when he dropped him off at school at 9 a.m.  "He was going to go places in life," Heslin told the Post.

Ana Marquez-Greene, 6  "1, 2, 3, ready and go," Ana counts down in a homemade video provided to CNN affiliate WTIC.  The girl in pigtails stands in front of a piano as her brother plays. Her voice is clear, bigger than her size. Ana smiles and waves.  Her father, Jimmy Greene, is a jazz musician. His representative released a statement on Ana's death, describing the little girl as "beautiful and vibrant."  "The family has requested privacy at this time of heartbreaking loss," it read. They "have asked us to relay their sincere gratitude for the outpouring of support and sympathy locally, nationally and internationally."

Grace McDonnell, 7  The ultimate "girly girl." Grace loved wearing pink and playing dress-up with jewelry, her grandmother told the Boston Herald.  As Mary Ann McDonnell spoke, she was surrounded by Christmas presents meant for Grace, Gracie, as she was sometimes called.  The little girl loved art, gymnastics, soccer and her small spaniel, Puddin', her grandmother said.  "She was a wonderful little girl. She was always smiling," McDonnell told the newspaper. "I think everybody should know about these beautiful children whose lives were cut short."

Anne Marie Murphy, 52  A hero. That's how a first responder reportedly described Murphy to her father.  He told Newsday that authorities told him her body was found in a classroom, covering young children killed in the shooting in an apparent attempt to shield them.  "She died doing what she loved. She was serving children and serving God," Murphy's mother, Alice McGowan, told the newspaper.  A married mother of four, Murphy was artistic and hardworking, her parents said.  "She was a happy soul," her mother told Newsday. "She was a very good daughter, a good mother, a good wife."

Emilie Parker, 6  She could "light up a room," Emilie's father said about his oldest daughter.  Robbie Parker described her as "bright, creative and very loving." Emilie was always willing to try new things, he said, except food. Her laugh was infectious.  "My daughter Emilie would be one of the first ones to be standing up and giving her love and support to all of those victims, because that is the type of person she is," said Parker.  He said she was "an exceptional artist and she always carried around her markers and pencils so she never missed an opportunity to draw a picture or make a card for someone."  "This world is a better place because she has been in it," Parker said.  Emilie's aunt described her niece as the "sweetest little girl I've ever known."  The family is devastated that "someone so beautiful and perfect is no longer going to be in our lives and for no reason," said Jill Cottle Garrett.  Emilie's father, who works as a physician's assistant in the newborn unit at the Danbury hospital, recalled his last conversation with his daughter was in Portuguese, a language he was teaching her.  "She said that she loved me, and I gave her a kiss and I was out the door," he said.

Noah Pozner, 6  "He had a huge heart and he was so much fun, a little bit rambunctious, lots of spirit," Noah's aunt told CNN. "He was really the light of the room."  Victoria Haller said her nephew loved playing with his cousins and siblings, especially his twin sister.  "He was a gorgeous, gorgeous boy and he could really get what he wanted just by batting those long eyelashes and looking at you with those big blue eyes. You really couldn't say no to him," she said.  His siblings don't know yet the exact way in which Noah passed away, Haller said.  "How do you tell them that's how their brother died?" she asked. "It's the unthinkable really."

Jessica Rekos, 6  Jessica loved everything about horses -- horse movies, horse books, drawing horses and writing stories about them.  She asked Santa this year for new cowgirl boots and a cowgirl hat. Her family had promised she could get her own horse when she turned 10.  "She was a creative, beautiful, little girl," her family said in a statement, describing Jessica as their "rock."  "She had an answer for everything, she didn't miss a trick, and she outsmarted us every time. We called her our little CEO for the way she carefully thought out and planned everything," they said. "We can not imagine our life without her."  Jessica also loved orca whales and playing with her two little brothers.  "We are mourning her loss, sharing our beautiful memories we have of her, and trying to help her brother Travis understand why he can't play with his best friend," her family said.

Lauren Rousseau, 30  Rousseau, a permanent substitute teacher at Sandy Hook Elementary, "wanted to be a teacher from before she even went to kindergarten," her mother said in a written statement Saturday. "We will miss her terribly and will take comfort knowing that she had achieved that dream," Teresa Rousseau said.  She grew up in Danbury, Connecticut, and earned a bachelor's degree from the University of Connecticut and a master's degree in elementary education from the University of Bridgeport.  Rousseau "worked as a substitute teacher in Danbury, New Milford and Newtown before she was hired in November as a permanent substitute teacher at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown," her mother said.

Mary Sherlach, 56  Sherlach, Sandy Hook Elementary's school psychologist, was with Hochsprung when they heard a "pop, pop, pop" sound around 9:30 a.m., a parent with both women at the time told CNN. Sherlach was shot to death after heading into the hall to find out what was happening.  "I ... am always ready to assist in problem-solving, intervention and prevention," Sherlach wrote on her website.  Sherlach earned her undergraduate degree in psychology at SUNY Cortland and a master's degree at Southern Connecticut State University. She worked as a rehabilitation assistant at a group home for disabled adults and as a community mental health placement specialist before becoming a school psychologist.  She worked in three Connecticut school systems before moving to Sandy Hook Elementary in 1994. During her time in Newtown, Sherlach kept busy as a member of numerous groups such as the district conflict resolution committee, safe school climate committee, crisis intervention team and student instructional team.  Sherlach and her husband for more than three decades lived in Trumbull, Connecticut, and, together, they were "proud parents" of two daughters in their late 20s. Her website listed her interests as gardening, reading and going to the theater.

Victoria Soto, 27  Soto, a first-grade teacher at Sandy Hook Elementary, moved her students away from the classroom door when she heard gunfire, which students initially "thought were hammers falling," according to the father of one of her students.  "That's when the gunman burst in, did not say a word, no facial expressions, and proceeded to shoot their teacher," said Robert Licata, whose 6-year-old son, Aiden, escaped by running past the shooter.  Soto's mother said her daughter was selfless.  "She would not hesitate to think to save anyone else before herself and especially children. She loved them more than life, and she would definitely put herself in front of them any day," Donna Soto told CNN's Piers Morgan.  Soto wanted to be a teacher since she was 3 and talked about her students with "such fondness and caring," her mother said.  Soto's cousin, James Wiltsie, said Soto "instinctively went into action when a monster came into her classroom and tried to protect the kids that she loved so much."  "We just want the public to know that Vicki was a hero," he said.  Soto had a dog she loved. The black lab Roxie spent Saturday wandering around Soto's apartment, apparently looking for her, relatives.

Daniel Barden, 7  Daniel earned his missing two front teeth, his family used to say.  His "fearless" pursuit of happiness and life also earned him ripped jeans.  "Despite that, he was, as his mother said, 'Just So Good,' " his family wrote in a statement published in the New Haven Register.  Taking after his musician dad, he and his siblings -- brother James and sister Natalie -- formed a band, in which he played drums.  He loved to ride waves at the beach and make s'mores around bonfires with his cousins.  "He embodied everything that is wholesome and innocent in the world," the family said.

Josephine Gay, 7  Josephine has just celebrated her seventh birthday Tuesday.  There's a picture of her on the Web, published in various news stories, that shows her smiling with glasses on the tip of her nose.  Josephine liked to ride her bike and sell lemonade in her neighborhood in the summer, The Wall Street Journal Reported.  The little girl loved the color purple.

Madeleine Hsu, 6  Sweet.  Unique.  Bright.  Determined.  Sparking.  Those are words Madeleine's family used to describe their little girl.  "She was an avid reader who loved running and dancing," they said.  "She was a born leader."

Catherine Hubbard, 6  A Facebook page honoring Catherine spoke of how the elementary-schooler is now an angel.  "Such a beautiful little soul," the post read, saying the family's loss is heaven's gain.  "God bless you all that you be strengthened, we are with you, and your suffering will remain in our prayers.

Chase Kowalski, 7  What Chase really wanted for Christmas was two front teeth.  "I saw him two days ago, and I asked him if he wanted to see Santa, and he told me that he wanted his teeth back, and it was really sweet," Chase's neighbor Keeley Baumann, 13, told the News-Times newspaper.  At 6, he completed his first triathlon, but that was just one of his pursuits.  He loved baseball.  He was in the Cub Scouts.  He looked forward to the kids' workshop at the local Home Depot.  "We are thankful to the Lord for giving us seven years with out beautiful loving son.  It is with heavy hearts that we return him," the family said in an obituary.

James Mattioli, 6  As he was quick to remind everyone, James was 6 and 3/4.  "He loved to wear shorts and T-shirts in any weather and grab the gel to spike his hair," his family said in a loving obituary.  "He would often sing at the top of his lungs, and once asked, 'How old do I have to be to sing on a stage?' "  Indoors, he spent his time playing games on the iPad -- especially the lawn mowing one.  Outdoors, he loved to dive off the diving board, "swim like a fish" in his grandfather's pool and ride his bike -- without training wheels, mind you.  "I need to go outside, Mom.  I need fresh air," he would often say.  He was born four weeks early -- because he was hungry, his family joked.  James had a voracious appetite.  His favorite?  His dad's egg omelets with bacon, and his mom's French toast.  He looked up to his older sister, wanting to do everything she could.  "They were the best of friends, going to school together, playing games together, and making endless drawings and crafts together."  The boy, whose family fondly called "J," will be incredibly missed, they said.

Jack Pinto, 6  Jack was a first-grader, and his interests ran the gamut -- baseball, basketball, wrestling, snow skiing.  But his first love was football, and his idol was New York Giants star receiver Victor Cruz.  Cruz paid tribute to the team's young fan by scribbling "Jack Pinto.  My Hero" on one of his cleats and "R.I.P. Jack Pinto" on the other during the team's game with the Atlanta Falcons over the weekend.  On his glove, Cruz wrote, "Jack Pinto.  This one is 4 U!"  Jack recently participated in his first wrestling match and won a medal, according to the president  of the New Milford Wrestling Association.  "In life and in death, Jack will forever be remembered for the immeasurable joy he brought to all who had the pleasure of knowing him, a joy whose wide reach belied his six short years," Jack's family wrote in an obituary for the little boy.

Caroline Previdi, 6  "You were a sweet little girl and you will be missed."  That's the message that Caroline's aunt reportedly tweeted, saying goodbye to her niece, according to the online version of the Press-Telegram in Long Beach, California.  "It hurts even more to see a familiar name on that list," the report said Paige Tremblay also tweeted.  A Facebook page called "RIP Caroline Previdi -- Sandy Hook Massacre Victim" contains dozens of messages.  One reads:  "Rest in Peace, sweetheart.  I know for sure that God is with you and all the other sweet little angels.  I feel so very sorry for all these families who lost their precious kids, my heart goes out to all of you."

Avielle Ruchman, 6  Avielle was happiest when she was on a horse.  Her trainer, Annette Sullivan, told the Conneticut Post that Avielle would "giggle when she trotted."  Like kids her age, her first loose tooth was a sign she was growing up.  "She showed me her wiggly tooth, she was so excited," Sullivan told the newspaper.  "She was the most delightful little girl you ever met in your life."

Benjamin Wheeler, 6  Ben loved The Beatles, lighthouses and the No. 7 train to Sunnyside, Queens, his family said in a statement.  He and his older brother Nate "filled the house with the noise of four children."  "Ben Wheeler was an irrepressibly bright and spirited boy whose love of fun and excitement at the wonders of life and the world could rarely be contained.  his rush to experience life was headlong, creative, and immediate," his family said.  Ben loved soccer and swimming, recently her performed at a piano recital -- a major feat for a little boy who rarely sat still.  Friday morning before school, he told his mom:  "I still want to be an architect, but I also want to be a paleontologist, because that's what Nate is going to be, and I want to do everything Nate does."  Ben, Nate, and their parents, Francine and David Wheeler, moved to Newtown in 2007.  Francine Wheeler is a music teacher and performer.  David Wheeler is an illustrator and designer.  On Sunday, Francine Wheeler's band posted the following message on its Facebook page:  "With heavy hearts, we inform you of our saddest news:  Francine Wheeler, a founding member of The Dream Jam Band, has lost her precious 6-year old son, Ben, to the tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut.  Our prayers and love go out to Francine, David, and Ben's big brother, Nate."

Allison Wyatt, 6  Allison was a shy and quiet little girl, and incredibly sweet, several reports said.  "I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your little girl," someone wrote on a Facebook page in Allison's name.  "My heart grieves; as a parent, I know it is not something you can ever be prepared for."

For my music post Monday today I dedicated this song to everyone affected by the Sandy Hook shooting.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/12/15/sandy-hook-shooting-victims-names_n_2307354.html

http://www.ksbw.com/news/List-of-Connecticut-school-shooting-victims/-/1852/17791958/-/item/14/-/l6sjoc/-/index.html
http://www.businessinsider.com/morgan-freeman-sandy-hook-hoax-2012-12

This Pretty Much Sums Up My Life

This Just Makes Me Happy. :)

Pretty Sure I'm in Love

So yeah.
I love it when boys are attractive.
And can sing.
And are smart.
And funny.

It's pretty great.

Now I just need to get this boy to like me.
And everything will be perfect.

Maddie has already decided that we should get married.
And I definitely agree.
...He just needs to agree too. ;)


That moment when you realize that you totally just looked at every single picture this guy has been tagged in on Facebook.  Because he is just that attractive.
Yeah.  He's pretty nice to look at.

Code Blue

On Friday a barbershop quartet came to our school.
And let me just say... they were flawless.
From the moment they began singing I was in love with every single one of them.
Which is kinda creepy... because their ages ranged from 23-50.
But they were just that great.

And of course I had a favorite.
The tenor.
His name is Drew.
He is perfect.
Every single time he sang, his falsetto was so beautiful it made my heart melt.
He honestly made me cry.
You wanna know how many times a boy had made me cry through his singing?
...Actually quite a few.
But do you wanna know how many times I have actually met the boy who made me cry through his singing?
Not nearly enough.
But this was one of those times.
In fact, I told Drew, "You have the most beautiful voice I have ever heard."
And he said, "Thank you!  I love you." And made a hand-heart.
And I said, "No.  I love you."
Win.

It was marvelous.

...Boys?

Okay... so... here's the sitch.
I wish I had a boyfriend.
Or at least a boyfriend-type figure.
You know?
Someone who I can call whenever I need to talk, someone who will hold my hand, someone to walk through haunted houses and watch scary movies with, someone to kiss my forehead when I'm having a bad day.

(Okay, maybe that last one is kinda cheesy and extreme for someone who is only a "boyfriend-type figure"... but whatever.  I want it anyway.)

I want someone to buy my flowers and chocolates.
And always sit by me at lunch without fail.

Someone who won't make me feel awkward when I go on a date with them doubling with my non-boyfriendless friends.


Can't I have this?
Please?

~~~

I actually have a boy in mind. :)  He's nice to look at. And nice to listen to.  And nice to talk to.  I wouldn't mind him being my boyfriend. :)  But I highly doubt he is interested in me that way.  But hey, he acknowledges my presence on a regular basis.  And he is usually the one who begins conversations.  And he compliments me a lot. And seems to actually care about what I say when I talk to him.  It's pretty great.

But in all reality...  he's way out of my league.

British Music Loves ♥

(Other than One Direction, of course.)

These aren't necessarily my favorite songs by them.

They are just my favorite music videos.

Look up other songs.

They're are all so great.

And each artist is so unique.

Cher Lloyd

Olly Murs

Ed Sheeran

The Best Girls' Camp Ever

My last time at camp.
And the best time at camp.
There is so much to say, I just hope I can fit most of it in a blog post.
But there is absolutely no way you will be able to comprehend the greatness of camp just through this one blog post.

~~~

Monday:  We YCLs went rafting.  It was so fun.  It was a little easy than I expected it to be.  I wish the rapids had been a little bigger, but it was hecka great nonetheless.  Then we went to camp.  And while at camp we did our toenails.  There were these cute little toenail sticker thingys, so my toes are supes cute.  Silver with pink.  They look like I am just a supes talented nail painter.  Supes.

Tuesday:  The other girls showed up.  I met my girls.  I was in charge of the 3rd years with Hannah, Emilee, and Kayla.  The 3rd year girls were fantastic!  All 20 of them were amazing!  I loved each and every one of them!  One of the girl's name was Natalie, and she was supes cool.  AND apparently her brother is on a mission in Chile... and he is David Archuleta's mission companion.  And pretty much, Natalie loved me.  So she is writing her brother and giving him my address and was going to ask if Elder Archuleta cuold write me a letter.  And apparently Natalie is pretty sure David WOULD write it.  And so most likely I am going to be getting a letter from David Archuleta.  EEEEP!!!!  :D  It's supes exciting!!  (Sorry about saying supes so much... that was one of the things I was doing at girls' camp... saying supes.  So I figured I'd say it while talking about girls' camp.)  And when I told my parents I might get a letter from David Archuleta they started arguing like I was actually dating him or something.  Awkward... haha!  And my mom mentioned that I might marry him... which was hilarious. :)

Wednesday:  The Walk with Christ.  It was so amazing.  I stayed at my one station and sang the same song six times, and you think that would get boring, but no.  Each time the spirit got stronger and stronger, and I was crying by the end.  And the girls who were sharing personal experiences and bearing their testimonies got more and more spiritual too.  It was so amazing.

Thursday:  The hike.  Oh poo.  They said it was 5 miles, but it was 8.  AND the entire 4 mile way back I had to poo.  Let's just say... I'm usually that last person finished with a hike, but that time I was the 4th.  I was booking it back to camp.  That hike didn't kill my legs or anything, it was just exhausting on my lungs.  Later that night we had testimony meeting.  I was one of the last to bear my testimony and I was bawling the whole time.  And then I was bawling afterwards as well.  I bawled for 3 hours straight.  I only stopped when I threw up from bawling so much.  Yup.

Friday:  We went home.  That's pretty much it.

~~~

I'm going to miss my girls so much!  I loved every single one of them.  ♥  I just hope they realize how much I love them.  There was also this one girl, Lexi, who loved me.  She wasn't even one of my girls!  But whenever she would see someone she would tell them something about me or ask if they could tell me something.  She was so cute.  We even had a 'secret handshake.'  (We would just point at each other with gun fingers and make a cilcking noise with our tongue.)  She is a special girl, and I'm sure she appreciated having me as a friend.  And everyone was so nice to her it was fantastic!

Lexi and me

And our handshake!

My Favorite Family

I wish it could always be Jive Week.

I love the people in Jive.
I love the performances.
I love the thrill and the joy.
I love the adrenaline.

Jive is a family.  My family.

~~~

After a week with them you think I'd get tired or annoyed, but no!  It just got better and better, and we got closer and closer.  And then last night was awful.  It was the end.  Our last show.  Half of us are leaving.  I cried.  For an hour straight.  I cried so hard I threw up.  (That was a first.)  But I wasn't crying for me... because I'm going to be in Jive next year.  I was crying for the 13 of us that won't be returning.  The ones that I love and will miss dearly.

I cried for them.

Next year I'll be crying for me.

It'll probably be even worse.

I'm dreading the end of Jive.

~~~

Jive is my life.  The feeling of being up on stage is just so great.  As you know from a previous post, I'm transferring to Twin Falls High School in order to stay in Jive... I told a few of my CRHS friends that last night.  And they knew that it was the right decision even though they'd miss me.  They watched me perform, and they knew that it was what I loved more than anything else in the world.  I love my friends.

During Jr. Jive a few of the little 2nd grade girls came up to me and said "My mommy says you have a pretty voice."  It was so great. :D  And even though the Jr. Jivers performed at the matinee, I saw one of my little girls at last nights evening show too.  And when I was bawling my eyes out she came up to me and gave me a hug and said "You did so good."  It only made me cry harder.  It was so sweet.  And there was this one 8th grade Jr. Jiver who says I am her inspiration.  It made me feel so great!  I even gave her some advice. :D  I felt almost famous!

And this older lady came up to me and told me that she enjoyed the show, and specifically enjoyed watching me because I looked so joyful, and she could tell I gave it my all.

And then another lady told me to never give up on music.  She said I was very blessed and talented and that I should definitely stick with music and go into a career for it.

~~~

Best night ever.

I just wish I wasn't such a baby.

~~~

And we revealed secret Jive friends.  Which was fun.  But I knew that Emilee had me.  She made it rather obvious.  With Subway cookies and "beer" and such.  Silly Emilee!  I had Kiefer.  I gave him mouse traps one day... and it was not a good idea.  But yeah.  Just something to remember.  Don't give teenage boys mouse traps.

~~~

Then Shari's.  It's Jive tradition.  We were there until 1.  But we almost got kicked out around 11:30 because we were trying to make everyone fit around one booth, and it ended with people sitting on walls and climbing over tables.  But yeah.  We had a little Jive-amony meeting at Shari's, but not everyone was there, and not everyone shared.  So we're going to finish it on Tuesday in class. :)

~~~

And I gave him a ride home afterwards. :)  I felt so happy to be alone in a car with him at 1 in the morning.  That sounds bad... but NOTHING HAPPENED.  Though I wish SOMETHING had.  Like... at least a hug!  But I guess I'll just have to accept the "Bye Elizabeth!  Thanks for the ride, love you!"  that I got.  It's better than nothing!  Oh well... I'm 99% sure he doesn't feel the same way about me as I feel about him anyway.  And he's leaving next year.  :(  But I'll hopefully be able to get over it in time.

~~~

♥ JIVE ♥

What I Love

Jive!

The Performance.

Hearing people cheering and screaming.

For me.

I love it.

So much.

Doesn't this look like a picture of a girl who is doing something she loves?

(Ignore my dad in the background.  He is strange.)

And I love my friends who come and support me even though it costs $5. ♥

A Song I Wrote

Well... these are just the lyrics.  The tune is all figured and such, I'm just writing out the piano accompaniment.  It is coming along quite nicely.  I like this song.  A lot.  Maybe someday I'll post a video of the actual music part of the song.

You are so flawless,

You don't know that you are.

I want to give you my heart

When you smile across the room.

You make my sky cloudless,

You always know what to say

To make my heart float away

Like a balloon.

Please say you want me,

Please say that you really care.

Please say you need me,

Please say you'll always be there.

And every time that you look at me I feel my love for you grow,

And all that I wish...

Is that none of my flaws would show.

You are so gorgeous.

I love the way that you smile,

It leaves me dazed for a while

And lets me know it'll be alright.

You're a light in the darkness,

Chasing my doubts away

Each and every day.

You are all I think about at night.

Please say you want me,

Please say that you really care.

Please say you need me,

Please say you'll always be there.

And every time that you look at me I feel my love for you grow,

And all that I wish...

Is that none of my flaws would show.

If there was anything in this world that I could do

To make you notice me the same way that I notice you,

It'd be worth it.

Cuz boy, you're so perfect.

Please say you want me,

Please say that you really care.

Please say you need me,

Please say you'll always be there.

And every time that you look at me I feel my love for you grow,

And all that I wish...

Is that none of my flaws would show.

None of my flaws would show.

Would show.

But they will show.

Any comments, requests, or threats?

I need a title... any suggestions?

Random Tidbits of the Day

So today I realized that on Saturday (when it snowed), my 7 year old sister Leah woke up early and went outside to clear of my car's windshield.  (Everyone say "AWW!!!")  That sad part is that I didn't even notice because she didn't know that I didn't have anywhere to drive that day. :(  I didn't even go outside to my car.

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Made my day...

I'm not sure why... but this just made me laugh my head off.

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Also made my day:  I was sitting alone in Jive cuz half the people were out of the room getting costume stuff ready, and the rest of us were just randomly singing through our songs.  I was sitting in my seat, and everyone else was standing in a circle in the corner of the room.  You walked in, starting walking to your friends all sitting in the corner, turned and saw my sitting all alone, and came and sat by me.  :)  Thank you.  So much.  You don't know how much it meant to me.  :)  The only problem is... I don't know if you did it to be nice, or if you feel the same way about me as I feel about you.  I get mixed signals from you.  You're just a genuinely nice person, so you're probably just being nice... but there are always those few times that make me wonder.

"I thought about you today, a lot.  I liked it so much that I put it at the top of my list of things to do tomorrow."

Everyday.

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P.S.  So, I posted that hilarious picture on Facebook and got likes from people who aren't necessarily not my friends, but who don't really acknowledge my existence for one reason or another (be it our paths don't cross, they just happen to not talk to me ever, etc)... and I love it when that happens. :)

Good Day :D

As you may or may not have noticed on my 365 Day Photo Challenge picture for today I said that I feel loved. :) Now, it's not by a boy or anyone important like that... it's just everyone in general. :) It was a good day. I love Twin Falls High School. I really like Canyon Ridge too... but I think I might like Twin Falls more. However, I'm not sure, so I am very glad I have the opportunity to go to both. :D So, yesterday I only went to Canyon Ridge because I stayed home sick after lunch. Bleh. And I didn't go to TFHS at all. Today, at Twin before I even got to my first class (so pretty much in 4 minutes), I already had 4 people say "Hey! Elizabeth, you're back!" And that made me super glad. And then in class, Sunny told me that they were going to have Sister Act solo auditions in Jive for Winter Showcase, but everyone said "No! We have to reserve one for Elizabeth!" so they didn't audition yesterday. Which ALSO makes me super glad. :) (I'm not even sure if I want a solo in Sister Act, but now that they said that I feel like I should at least audition for one. :P) So yeah. Good day. I feel loved. :)

Hope

"Right now, someone you haven't met is thinking about what it would be like to meet someone like you." ~Samra Ramovic

...in my khaki pants? Nah... I prefer jeans. :)

"Sadie Hawkins Dance! In my khaki pants! There's nothing better. Oh, oh, OOHHHH!" ...How true that is! (Well, the "nothing better" part. I didn't even wear khakis.) Yesterday was Sadie's. :) I asked my Kimbo friend Zack Mulberry. I've known him for like two years and have wanted to go on a date with him the entire time, and finally, it happened! Yes! :) He is so nice and funny! (Not to mention attractive.)

The date was so fun! We had been planning to go to the CSI ropes course, but the weather was windy and snowy, and the indoor course was closed due to basketball, so we went bowling instead. I honestly think I had more fun at the bowling alley than I possibly could have had at the ropes course though. :D The first game we bowled normally, and the second game we drew M&M's before our turn, and whatever color we got represented a different way we had to bowl. It was so hecka fun. :) The highlight of my day was when Zack drew brown and had to bowl backwards. And right before he went, his brother's best friend's family walked in and they were watching him and laughing. Then when he bowled the ball went straight into the gutter and then bounced into the gutter of the other lane. It was super funny. :D

For dinner we needed to order everything, including utensils and plates. The problem, however, was that the entire menu was in code, so you ordered three things randomly but had no idea what you would get. Zack's first course was a dessert plate, spoon, and napkin. It made me laugh that he didn't even get any food. :) My first course was a plate, red vinegar salad dressing, and milk. But I didn't have a cup, so I drank my milk from off my plate. (I left the dressing there, cuz I'd rather NOT just eat it plain, thank you very much.) After our three courses of confusion (although I watched to see what other people got and what they ordered so made a giant logic problem out of the meal and knew exactly what I was ordering by the second course... heh, yeah, I'm a nerd), we were allowed to actually order the food we actually wanted and use cups and silverware and such. And the food was DELISH.

Here is us painting the Party Bus! (AKA, my van.) I drove the group around in my family's van. I hung Christmas lights up inside of it (too bad I didn't get any pictures of those, cuz they totally rocked), and we painted all the windows. Zack is the Justin Bieber fan who wrote "Bieber Fever" on the back of my van. McKenna didn't like that, so she wrote "NOT!" underneath. I don't think McKenna even ever

realized that I later crossed out her contribution. I kinda like JB, you know? Plus, I felt like I should support my date in his choice of music by young male pop artists.

Our group: Emily Cotterell, Kendall Hall, McKenna Thompson, Dan Plant, Me, Zack Mulberry, Tori Arritt, Bryant Foster, Annie Romney, and Jared Berry

<---This one's my favorite! Don't we look so cute together? :) Man, I love this kid! It's so hard to believe he's a senior! Now that swim season is over I'm almost never going to see him anymore! And then he's going to leave for college. :( Swim team will never be the same without him yelling "Hey Wizzles!" all the time. Yes, he sometimes calls me Wizzles. Don't ask me why. I don't know. My mom thinks it's cute, but I think it's annoying. But I do kinda like it a little in that "well, he's my friend and he's trying to annoy me because he's my friend" kind of way. Plus, I'm not gonna make him stop cuz I totally have been crushing on him for forever, and so I really don't mind what he calls me as long as he keeps talking to me and remains my friend. :)

I really like this one too. --->

I'm bigger than Zack, so I didn't want to get on his back and crush him, but I did want a piggy back picture... like really badly. So I told him to get on my back! We had to move a few more steps up the canyon, though, because in the other pictures there was a cliff directly behind us, and the first time Zack tried to jump onto my back I collapsed, so he was afraid I was going to drop him off the cliff. (But I'm totally strong enough that I would never do that.) He obviously didn't trust me, however, (like, seriously! He was wrapping his arms around my neck and choking me he was freaking out so much!) so we traveled away from the cliff, so there isn't as much of the river in the background of this picture as there is in the others.

Here are the backs of our shirts. Zack looks great, but I look like crap! I wish someone had told me that my hair was all messed up! It'd look so much better if my hair just flowed down and didn't get caught on my shoulders. And my shirt looks off-centered, but I swear it isn't! Part of the many hours I put into making these shirts included me measuring them to make sure the they were centered. It must just look crooked because of the way I was standing or something. But my OCD isn't a big fan of this picture because of aforementioned reasons.

All in all, yesterday was an amazing day. :) Between the date, dinner, and dances (we played Just Dance 3, went to the school dance, and went to the stake dance), I had so much fun! And Zack said he had a lot of fun to, so that's good. The biggest thing I worry about when it comes to girl-ask-guy dances is impressing my date. I don't want him to think I'm lame! I'm pretty sure I impressed Zack enough, though. :)

Fun Flirts and Poodle Skirts

Boys, boys, boys. Why are they so fantastic some of the time, and then awful others? it doesn't make sense. But no matter what, they are always so fun to flirt with. :D Is there really any harm in flirting? ...I honestly don't know. I don't think I am 'leading anyone on' because I don't think any guys really like me enough to be led on. So for me, flirting=fun. No consequences. :D ...Well, mostly. It may cause me to like a guy more than I should, especially when he has a girlfriend. But! We'll not get into that subject and it's relevance to my life right now, shall we?

I ♥ JIVE! We had our concert tonight, and, although it was somewhat lacking in the singing department to begin with, it was so much fun! This is what I love. I am so glad I am in JIVE. I love to perform. This is my life. We did Grease. And these pictures show my costume! (I ended up in a different poodle skirt, though: a longer one. And I made these shoes myself using bleach and sharpie on an old pair of my mom's Kegs. :) Sometimes I feel like I am an undiscovered creative genius!

According to a few different people, I was the most exciting person on stage. :D That makes me happy because this has always been my dream. Also, Chamber Singers was apparently incredible. I guess we sounded gorgeous. :) I love to sing. ♥ After the concert we went to Arctic Circle. It was so fun. We sang and talked and annoyed the other costumers. Oh, I am so excited for the rest of this school year. (Especially JIVE week.)

Well, I should probably be working on my Calculus homework right now. I have my second exam on Wednesday, and I am hoping to get higher than a 65% like I did on the first one. (Although, when I corrected it I got up to a 78%.)