Adult?

It's so weird to be an adult. Because I feel exactly the same. Except for the fact that when I'm out in public, I feel like people are judging more. But I'm pretty sure they're not... I'm just stupid and paranoid. :P

And it's kinda hard to enjoy your birthday when two of your really good friends aren't at school. :(

But it's easier to enjoy your birthday when one of your friends brings you brownies, you give an epic English presentation, and your parents give you an iPod 5. :)

I'm so blessed with amazing friends and family. :D

Birthday = Success

Those Little Things that Create the Best Days.

-I listened to Les Miserables music in the morning and had "Stars" stuck in my head all day.

-I completely understand my Calculus homework and got half of the problems done in class.

-I had a cello lesson during third period.  The guy I like called me in the middle of my lesson to have me help him with Physics homework.  Then I texted him afterward my lesson, and he told me to go to the library. When I got there he wasn't even doing Physics... he obviously just wanted to be with me.  (Yeah, whatever.  That's so not it.  But a girl can dream, can't she?)

-I found out that one of my new-found friends' birthday is exactly a week after mine. :)

-My friend Maddie mentioned the song "Stars" in Chamber Singers... and it was a coincidence that made me happy since the song had been stuck in my head all day.

-We performed for a random freshman English teacher in Jive.

-I invited the aforementioned special guy over to work on Physics homework after school, and he came. :) And then my mom invited him to stay for dinner, and he did.  :) :)  It was so fun! ...Wow.  I never thought I'd say that Physics homework is "so fun," but with him, it genuinely was!

-I got to play my cello at mutual because I'm playing it at New Beginnings next week.

-We had an early birthday party for me and a couple other girls for mutual.  Where we played a bunch of fun games.  One of which forced me to eat an entirely over-ripe banana.  So fun. :P

-I had cake.  Which was the first sweet I have eaten for a week because I told myself I would not eat sweets for all of February unless they were birthday or Valentine's Day related.  ...And after I ate it I felt sick.  Which is good!  I'm weaning myself off of sugar. :)  Usually two pieces of cake that size wouldn't faze me, but this one made me want to puke.  (Not that it wasn't good cake... I mean, it was DELICIOUS.)

-I'm actually going to be getting to bed before midnight. :)

17th Birfday.

Yesterday was 16.

Today is 17.

I don't know about you... but I can see the difference. :)

My birthday celebration started at midnight with the opening of a letter I received from my brother a week ago.  4 pages front and back.  I miss him so much!  His letter consisted mostly of ACT advice (I had actually already taken the ACT yesterday, but most of his advice I had followed unknowingly.) and multiple comments on why I shouldn't get a boyfriend.  (I don't think there is anything you need to worry about there, Matt.)  I cried as I read his letter.  The thing I am probably looking forward to most in the next 1 1/2 years' future isn't my 18th birthday, or senior prom, or graduation... but when Matt comes home, and I get to see him again.

Church.  Not as great a birthday spiritual feeding as I may have wished, but it was alright I guess.  And I got many birthday wishes.  Megan wished me happy birthday multiple times throughout the day.  I think it totaled 8... she counted. :) Haha.

Facebook.  50 posts on my wall.  :)  Sounds like quite a few.  But when you take into consideration 476 friends I have, 50 sounds wimpy and pathetic.  And he didn't even wish me a happy birthday at all.  Every single time my phone vibrated I hoped it had been him, but it never was.  And I know for a fact that he WAS on Facebook at some point.  Maybe he'll wish me a late birthday in person tomorrow?  Doubt it.  Hmmm... I really want to ask him to Sweethearts.  A bunch.

Dinner.  Birthday steak and potatoes.  Yumm, yumm, yumm.  I almost didn't have any room in my ever-growing stomach for my birthday chocolate cheesecake!  That woulda been a bummer!

Presents.  I got a purple jacket with a few sparkles scattered over it.  Pretty. :)  My mommy made it for me. :)  I also got a hard red cello case.  So exciting!  I ♥ cello.

Pondering and Procrastination.

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Oh Sundays. How peaceful they seem, but not so. I'm relaxing... but in my mind I am freaking out because there is so much I must get done before I go back to school tomorrow. Math assignments, English essays, books to read, etc. And yet here I am. Blogging. Don't you love how I prioritize?

I can't even begin to express how much I love having a laptop at my availability. It is so great to be able to just sit in my room and do whatever I please. Be it Facebook, Skype, Blogger, or even IDLA. It's just great. (It's not IDLA that's great; the fact that I can do anything at my leisure us great.)

Speaking of IDLA and homework and crap... that is exactly what I SHOULD be doing right now. :P Especially since my math teacher decided that she isn't going to accept any late work ever again. :/ And I have to write a creative writing essay. And I have to read a book. Ughh... homework.

So yeah. This past weekend my incredible brother Matthew came home because we were supposed to receive his mission call (along with his friend Rees's). But neither of their calls came... so Matt and all of his friends came up for nothing. But it was fun to hang out with them for a day or so. Friday night we all watched Robin Hood, which was fun. :)

Saturday pretty much all I did was fold laundry and work on my dress for Sweetheart's. :) I'm going to Sweetheart's with my friend Perrin Romney on Saturday! And Saturday is my birthday! :D :D :D I get to go to my first date on my 16th birthday. It's special. :)

I feel like I'm falling apart! My wrist has hurt like heck for the past week. I'm going to get it checked on Tuesday. I'm scared. :/ People keep saying they think something is really wrong with it. I might have to have physical therapy or surgery or something. :( If I'm crippled then I can't play the piano, or the cello, or percussion, or tennis! :( :( Awful!!! My stomach has been hurting a lot lately too. :/ And my knee starting hurting for a few days. I'm pretty much falling apart. My body= dead.

Lately I've also felt really depressed-ish... and I don't even know why! I've been really tired, even though I've been getting plenty of sleep. It seems like this whole past week just pretty much sucked. :/ I'm rally hoping this next week will be better. Chances are it will be, but you never know! Ta ta for now!